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you cannot think me dissipated; I never moped at home before we were married; and it is very hard to be obliged to give up all my friends and acquaintances now.'

'I do not ask this,' replied her easy husband; but why not have smaller parties, and prepare the refreshments yourself? Mr. Ellis tells me that his wife prepares every thing that is served at his house; and their entertainments, we know, are always elegant. This would save more than one half of what I now pay to a professed artiste.' 'Oh, I should spoil more than would be saved by that plan,' was the reply.

This was true; for in attempting to prepare some crullers, she made the paste so very rich, that she could neither roll it out, or boil it afterward; and in her vexation, she threw the whole compound

away.

Wilful waste makes woful want,' is an adage as just as it is homely. Those who do not study economy from principle, will be compelled to practice it of necessity; and this my cousin found to her confusion, in the third year of her marriage. A needle had ever been her aversion; but she did attempt some things for her boy, and the poor child looked as if his clothes had dropped on to him from a whirlwind. But reform had come too late. An assignment was inevitable. It is all my fault,' said she to me, on taking leave, as they were starting for Missouri, 'it is all my fault, and Walter knows it. I see that he feels contempt for me; and how I despise myself, in reflecting that my selfish extravagance has brought ruin on so kind a husband!' I trembled for their happiness; and in considering the causes of her disaster, felt more reconciled to my own pursuits, quiet and humble as they were. There is no situation in life which exempts a female from certain duties; and though many have a mother or other relative to take the burden off their hands, they are inseparable from her situation as a wife and mother. Yet how seldom are girls properly disciplined and prepared for this responsible situation! Happily, Mr. Dudley possessed perseverance as well as enterprise. With a borrowed sum, he purposed not only a 'living,' but an ample support; and it remained now to see if his wife was to prove a blessing or a clog to his virtuous endeavors. I recollected her habits, and sighed; yet she had a generous heart, and a love for the truly beautiful and good, and I took courage. What though,' thought 1, in the remembered language of PAULDING'S ' Backwoodsman,'

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'What though long, tedious miles may intervene,
And dangers lurk their hopes and them between ;
What if they bid a long, nay last adieu,

To scenes their earliest feelings fondly knew?
Bright INDEPENDENCE Will the loss repay,

And make them rich amends some other day.'

WHICH Will you have for dinner, John, 'taters or stir-pudding?' asked the Wolverhampton cobbler's wife of her husband. Surely, unless this man was unreasonable, (and husbands are sometimes unreasonable,) he ought to have been happier than many a proud peer of

the realm.

Let us divide our labors,' was the happy suggestion of

our first mother, in her days of innocence and love:

'Let us divide our labors, thou where choice

Leads thee, or where most needs, whether to wind

The woodbine round this arbor, or direct

The clasping ivy where to climb, while I,

In yonder spring of roses intermix'd

With myrtle, find what to re-dress till noon.'

'Crooked Branch, Missouri, July, 18

MY DEAREST COUSIN : My last letter to you was dated at Buffalo, a year ago last month; and, as I well remember, was filled with regrets and gloomy anticipations. Yet, with all this depression of spirits, I was not insensible to the beauty of the country through which we passed. New worlds seemed to burst upon the view, at every step of our journey; and I could scarcely believe, that we were on our way to the far west,' of which I had previously entertained so great a horror. Here was a busy city; there a town just sprung into existence, which already numbered its thousand inhabitants; a little farther on, was another still larger, and all looking so fresh and young, as to show that they were not yet in their teens. We passed green fields, too, and fertile valleys, with far-spread prairies, and creeks that swelled into lakes, and rivers that were almost oceans. It was a beautiful sight; yet every step carried us farther from home, and, as I thought, happiness. When we arrived here, a spot sufficiently distant from duns and creditors, I could not help thinking, Walter proposed that we should tarry to look around us. We were in the heart of a most luxuriant state, with an abundance of wild land, which seemed to say, 'Come and plant me, and your labor will be rewarded an hundred fold.' Here we met with a settler, who was anxious to dispose of a large and valuable tract, to go (only think!) to go farther west!' This, then, shall be our abiding place,' said my husband, when he returned from concluding the bargain; and I think myself extremely fortunate in meeting with such an offer. He asks but a small advance, for two years' labor, and we shall have a house ready to go in.' My eyes were so blinded with tears, when, a few days afterward, Walter carried me to my new home, that I saw nothing. When I did venture to look around, I was struck with its desolate appearance. We could see the sunshine through crevices in the logs, and there was but a single room, with a 'milk-room,' as it was called, and a loft over head. My heart sank within me. Only think, cousin, what a prospect! You, I recollect, used often to expatiate upon cottages, and retirement; but I thought a comfortable house and pleasant society good enough for me. Well, for some time I did nothing but cry, and coax little Willie, who begged to be taken away from here. Poor Walter! How resolutely he walked about his lots, and planned and thought—for this was all new business to him and then came in, without a reproachful word or look, and began cooking his own meals. I could not endure this; and drying my eyes, I determined to bear my part of the burden. I will not weary you with a repetition of the hardships we endured, or of my unfitness for labor, in kid slippers and gossamer dresses; nor how,

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after we bought a cow, and Walter had assisted me in churning, I added salt to the butter with a salt-spoon, wondering why it did not have the proper taste!

'The fall was a busy season. Our crops yielded abundantly, and we were blessed with health. As the winter began to close around us, we contrived to render our abode tolerably comfortable, with the use of bark, and straw, and by making an embankment around the foundation. One night in November, after a hard day's work of drawing wood, Walter retired to bed, early in the evening. I followed in a short time, wearied with a large ironing, and soon slept profoundly. I was startled about midnight by the screams of the child. I awoke in terror; but what was my consternation, on beholding the room in a light blaze, and the flames already approaching the corner in which our bed stood. I called to Walter, and vainly endeavored to waken him. The flames came nearer; the smoke was hot and suffocating. Distractedly I called his name, shook him, and with infinite difficulty, succeeded at length in awakening'him, just as the blaze had caught a corner of the counterpane. We escaped uninjured to the barn, which fortunately was at a safe distance; and clasping each other, thanked God for our miraculous deliverance! We saw the roof fall in, and leaving it a smouldering heap of ruins, drove to our nearest neighbors, with only the addition of a horseblanket to our night garments. We had not saved an article; and how can I express to you the kindness with which we were received, and made comfortable. Active exertions were immediately taken to renew our building. The men all joined on this occasion: some lent the use of their team for drawing logs, and gave a day's labor of their hired men; others came with their sons to assist, from a distance of many miles; and in a short time we had a dwelling larger and more convenient, with scarcely any expense. Nor were the women idle. From perfect strangers we received articles of clothing and bedding, for which they neither expected or would receive any remuneration. I was affected even to tears, when, after several days' illness, occasioned by fright and exposure to cold, I assembled with the kind family who afforded us a shelter, and saw the many testimonies of benevolence sent by our most distant neighbors. A fine ham from one, a pot of honey from another, with a small firkin of butter from a third; every thing, in fact, was remembered, that our necessities could require; and you may well imagine the depth of our gratitude.

The devouring element robbed me of many a valued keepsake from friends at home, but nothing grived me so much as the loss of your letters. Other things could be restored or dispensed with; but how regain those faithful transcripts of a soul sincere and elevated? I was less reconciled, too, when I recollected that it was occasioned by my own carelessness. The day of the fire, I consumed a quantity of wood in ironing, and took up the ashes in an old paper band-box, which I placed near the house, under a shed. This undoubtedly took fire, and communicating to the straw between the logs, caused the disaster, from which we only escaped with our lives. A neighbor's daughter staid with me this winter, for my health was delicate, and her presence greatly assisted in promoting cheerfulness in our

little dwelling. Occasionally, too, on long winter evenings, one or two neighbors, (the nearest lives two miles off,) called over, and I was much surprised at finding them so intelligent. Having but few objects of local interest, they all read the papers a great deal, and are conversant with the general state of affairs, both at home and abroad. I soon began to take an interest in these subjects. I recollect that when in New-York, had I been asked who was the mayor of the city, I could not have told; but now, I not only know who is in power, but understand something of their capabilities for office; and it is wonderful how much an attention to these matters has increased my patriotism. We receive the city papers regularly, and after giving them a perusal, exchange with our neighbors. A week or two after date, makes no difference; having, as Walter says, no stocks to look after. I am gratified to observe that Walter is regarded by them with much consideration. He possesses a vast amount of general information, which is highly valuable; and his wife is looked upon as a very fine lady. Perhaps I have had some claim to that rather equivocal character; yet I am not ambitious of the appellation, and hope rather to win the esteem due to a fine woman.

'You will wonder how we employ ourselves on Sundays, in a place so remote from a house of worship. The Sabbath is with us a day of rest; not only to ourselves, but to our cattle, and to the stranger within our gates. We have several volumes of excellent sermons, and other religious books, from which one of us reads aloud; but above all do we study the Sacred Volume. We endeavor to read understandingly, and to make it the rule of our conduct, sitting low at the feet of our blessed Master. I never had my devotional feelings half so much exercised in church, as they have been in these unostentatious services. There, my attention was divided between prayers and people, and my thoughts far from the object of our assembling. In the afternoon, we walk; and at this season, when every shrub and plant is in full beauty, and trees which look as if they had been standing ever since the waters were separated from the dry land, clothed with verdant foliage, from which break forth the songs of a thousand unseen minstrels, we can scarcely refrain from crying aloud, in the language of the Psalmist, All thy works praise thee!' Our favorite resort is a very beautiful creek, about three quarters of a mile from here, and from which this place derives its name. Here, seated on a sloping bank, shaded by hazel bushes and the wild willow, we enjoy, in all its glorious perfection, the magnificence of nature. This is a picturesque spot, romantic enough to please even you; and I ardently hope, one day, to enjoy its beauties in your company. In the evening, several young people, provided with note-books, congregate at our cottage, and we conclude the day in singing hymns. I would not boast of myself, yet these employments have had the most beneficial effects upon my heart and temper; and to you, my dear I may say, that I trust I am a better

Christian.

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'Our location is a very happy one. prospect of field and meadow, on one side, with a fine wood on the other, which intervenes between us and our charming creek. The former owner, too, had the good taste to leave several stately old

oaks near the dwelling, for which I am vastly obliged. Willie is under obligations, also, for his father has attached a rope to two of them, which affords him occasional pastime in swinging his promising boy. I have now a hired girl, the daughter of an Englishman, whose large family of 'buys,' as he calls them, (by the way, they are more than half girls,) renders it necessary that they should all be 'doing some'at.' Her name is Hetty; I love soft names, and her temper is as pleasant as her name, and she is as merry as a lark. I never could endure low spirits in any one but you, my dear -, and I excused them in you, knowing there was some cause for them. I find full employment for my hands, I assure you; and what between my dairy and poultry-yard, and matters in-doors, I have no idle time. Even little Willie does not eat the bread of idleness, but sings his 'By O!' most manfully, while rocking the cradle of his little sister. You will probably be tempted to inquire, if we do not miss the refinements and elegancies to which we have been accustomed. We do miss them; for although we have found in our present neighborhood more of the sterling qualities that do honor to the human heart, than one meets with in large cities, where clashing interests render men selfish, there is yet a dearth of much that makes life desirable. But we are content to labor now, hoping to procure indulgences at some future day, for ourselves, as well as our children, whom we trust to educate without sending far from home, as excellent schools are being started in every direction. And moreover, as we never should have expatriated ourselves of choice, ought we not to be grateful and content, to have secured so safe a harbor, when driven by misfortunes from the place of our nativity? Truly, our lot has been cast in a pleasant land, which only requires us to appreciate, and to strengthen by wise legislation, to be the greatest boon of an indulgent heaven.

And now, my dear may not my misfortunes be properly ascribed to a deficient education? In this we have both been unfortunate, although the plans pursued differed so widely. My mother, with mistaken fondness, thought only to promote my present enjoyment, to the neglect of domestic duties; and hence my unfitness to fulfil with judgment the obligations of a mistress. Nor was this all. By an attention to none but light accomplishments, my mind. was neither properly disciplined, my understanding improved and strengthened, nor my views enlarged, in the manner that good sense imperiously demands, for those who are to have the care of the affections, and the formation of the first principles of future divines and statesmen. With yourself, the error consisted in the too exclusive confinement to a single department of the various duties which devolve upon us, in the different characters of sisters, wives, mothers, and friends, as well as mistresses. In my case, blind affection caused the error; in yours, mistaken and narrow views. Yet with you, the error was on the safe side, while my giddy career and thoughtless folly led to ruin; and had I not been blessed with a companion of a firm and virtuous mind, the consequences might have been fatal. Walter declares that he is perfectly happy: for this I cannot be sufficiently thankful; and could I conquer a few regrets, and reconcile myself to the absence of dear friends, I might be able to say the

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