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nefs, no forbearing or forgiving one another: But envy, malice, revenge, fufpicion, anger, clamour, bitternefs, evil-fpeaking, without end! Abundant proof, that there can be no true love of man, unless it be built on the love of God.

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Sund. 6. Calling on Mr. Laffels, and afking how he did, My departure (faid he) I hope is at hand." I afked, "Are you troubled at that ?" He replied, "O no; to depart and to be with Chrift, is far better. defire no more of this bad world. My hope and my joy and my love is there." The next time I faw him he faid, "I defire nothing more, than for God to forgive my many and great fins. I would be humble. I would be the humbleft creature living. My heart is humble and broken for my fins. Tell me, teach me, what fhall I do to pleafe GOD. I would fain do whatever is his will." I faid, "It is his will, you should fuffer." He anfwered, "Then I will fuffer. I will gladly fuffer whatever pleases him.”

Mond. 7. Finding him weaker, I afked. "Do you ftill defire to die ?" He faid, "Yes; but I dare not pray for it, for fear I fhould difpleafe my heavenly Father. His will be done. Let him work his will, in my life, or in my death."

Thurf. 10. We began to execute at Frederica, what we had before agreed to do at Savannah. Our defign was on Sundays in the afternoon, and every evening after public fervice, to spend fome time with the moft ferious of the communicants, in finging, reading and converfation. This evening we had only Mark Iird. But on Sunday Mr. Hird, and two more defired to be admitted. After a pfalm and a little converfation, I read Mr. Law's Chriftian Perfection, and concluded with another pfalm.

Sat. June 12. Being with one who was very defirous to converfe with me, "but not upon religion," I spoke to this effect. "Suppofe you was going to a country, where every one spoke Latin and understood no other language, neither would converfe with any that did not underland it: Suppofe one was fent to stay here a fhort time, on purpose to teach it you: Suppofe that perion pleafed with your company, fhould fpend his time in trifling with you, and teach you, nothing of what he came for. Would that be well done? Yet this

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is our cafe. You are going to a country, where every one fpeaks the love of God. The citizens of hea ven understand no other language. They converfe with none who do not understand it. Indeed none fuch are admitted there. I am fent from. God to teach you this. A few days are allotted us for that purpose. Would it then be well done in me, becaufe I was pleafed with your company, to fpend this fhort time in trifling, and teach you nothing of what I came for? GOD forbid! I will rather not converfe with you at all. Of the two extremes, this is the beft."

Wed. June 16. Another little company of us mét, Mr. Reed, Davidson, Walker, Delamotte, and myself. We fung, read a little of Mr. Law, and then conversed. Wednefday and Friday were the days we fixt for con. ftant meeting.

Thurf. 17. An officer of a Man of War, walking juft behind with two or three of his acquaintance, curfed and fwore exceedingly; but upon my reproving him, feemed much moved, and gave me many thanks.

Sat. 19. Mr. Oglethorpe returned from the fouth, and gave orders on Sunday the 20th, that none should profane the day (as was ufual before) by fishing or fowling upon it. In the afternoon I fummed up what I had feen or heard at Frederica, inconfiftent with chriftianity, and confequently with the profperity of the place. The event was as it ought: Some of the hearers were profited, and the reft deeply offended.

This day, at half an hour paft ten, Gon heard the prayer of his fervant, and Mr. Laffels, according to his defire, was "diffolved that he might be with CHRIST."

Tuefd. 22. Obferving fuch coldness in Mr.'s behaviour, I asked him the reason of it. He answered, "I like nothing you do; all your fermons are fatires upon particular perfons. Therefore I will never hear you more. And all the people are of my mind. For we won't hear ourfelves abused.

"Befide, they fay, they are proteftants, But as for you, they can't tell what religion you are of. They never heard of such a religion before. They do not know what to make of it. And then, your private behaviour-All the quarrels that have been here fince you came, have been long of you. Indeed there is

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neither man nor woman in the town, who minds a word you fay. And fo you may preach long enough; but no body will come to hear you."

He was too warm for hearing an answer. So I hadnothing to do, but to thank him for his openness, and walk away.

Wednef. 23. I had a long converfation with Mr. upon the nature of true religion. I then asked him, "Why he did not endeavour to recommend it, to all with whom he converfed?" He faid, "I did so once, and for fome time, I thought I had done much good by it. But I afterwards found they were never the better, and I myfelf was the worse. Therefore now, tho' I always ftrive to be inoffenfive in my converfation, I don't strive to make people religious, unless thofe that have a defire to be fo, and are confequently, willing to hear me. But I have not yet (1 fpeak not of you or your brother) found one fuch person in America.

"He that hath ears to hear, let him hear!" Mark the tendency of this accurfed principle! If you will speak only to those who are willing to hear, fee how many you will turn from the error of their ways! If therefore, ftriving to do good, you have done hurt, what then? So did St. Paul. So did the Lord of life, even his word was the favour of death, as well as the favour of life. But fhall you therefore strive no more? God forbid! ftrive more humbly, more calmly, more cautiously. Do not ftrive as you did before, but strive, while the breath of God is in your nostrils!

Being to leave Frederica in the evening, I took the more notice of these words in the leffon for the day. Whereunto fhall I liken the men of this generation ? they are like unto children fitting in the market-place, and faying, we have piped unto you, and ye have not danced; we have mourned to you, and ye have not wept. For John the Baptist came neither eating bread, nor drinking wine, and ye fay, he hath a devil. The fon of man is come eating and drinking; and ye lay, behold a gluttonous man and a wine-bibber, a friend of publicans and finners," Luke vii.

About eleven at night we took boat. And on Satd. 26, about one in the afternoon came to Savannah. O what

what do we want here, either for life or godliness! If fuffering, God will fend it in his time.

Sund. June 27. About twenty joined with us in morning prayer. An hour or two after, a large, party of Creek Indians came, the expectation of whom deprived us of our place of public worship, in which they were to have their audience.

Wed. 30. I hoped a door was opened, for going up immediately to the Choctaws, the leaft polifhed, i. e. the leaft corrupted of all the Indian nations. But upon my informing Mr. Oglethorpe of our defign, he objected, not only the danger of being intercepted, or killed by the French there; but much more, the inexpediency of leaving Savannah, deftitute of a Minifter. Thefe objections I related to our brethren in the evening, who were all of opinion, "We ought not to go yet."

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Thuif. July 1. The Indians had an audience, and another on Saturday, when Chicali, their head man, dined with Mr. Oglethorpe. After dinner, I asked the grey-headed old man, What he thought he was made for?" He faid, "He that is above, knows what he made us for. We know nothing. We are in the dark. But white men know much. And yet white men build great houses, as if they were to live for ever. But white men can't live for ever. In a little time white men will be duft as well as I." I told him, "If red men will learn the good Book, they may know as much as white men. But neither we nor you can understand that book, unlefs we are taught by him that is above: And he will not teach, unless you avoid, what you already know is not good." He answered, "I believe that; He will not teach us, while our hearts are not white. And our men do what they know is not good. They kill their own children. And our women do what they know is not good. They kill the child before it is born. Therefore, He that is above, does not fend us the good Book."

Hearing the younger of the Mifs Boveys was not well, I called upon them this evening. I found, the had only the prickly heat, a fort of rafh, very common here in Summer. We foon fell into ferious conversation, after I had afked, "If they did not think they were too young, to trouble themselves with religion yet? And, whether they might not defer it ten or a dozen years? To which one of them replied,

If it will be reasonable ten years hence, to be religious, it is so now: I am not for deferring one

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Wed. July 7. I called there again, being determined now to speak more closely. But meeting company there, Prudence induced me to put it off, till another opportunity.

Thurf. 8. Mr. O. being there, and cafually speaking of fudden death, Mifs Becky faid, "If it was the will of God, I fhould chufe to die without a lingring illnefs." Her fifter faid, "Are you then always prepared to die? She replied, "JESUS CHRIST is always prepared to help me. And little ftrefs is to be laid on fuch a preparation for death, as is made in a fit of fickness."

Saturd. July 10. Juft as they had done drinking tea, Mrs. Margaret feeing her colour change, afked, If the was well? She did not return any anfwer; and Dr. Talfer foon after going by, fhe defired him to step in, and faid, "Sir, my fifter, I fear is not well." He looked carneftly at her, felt her pulfe, and replied, Well, Madam! Your fifter is dying." However he thought it not impoffible, bleeding might help. She bled about an ounce, leaned back and died.

As foon as I heard of it, I went to the house, and begged they would not lay her out immediately, there being a poffibility, at leaft, fhe might only be in a fwoon of which indeed there was fome flight hope, the not only being as warm as ever, but having a fresh colour in her cheeks, and a few drops of blood starting out, upon bending her arm; But there was no pulfe and no breath; fo that having waited fome hours, we found her Spirit was indeed returned to God that gave it.

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I never faw fo beautiful a corps in my life. comfort to its late inhabitant! I was greatly furprized at her fifter. There was in all her behaviour, such an inexpreffible mixture of tendernefs and refignation. The first time I spoke to her, fhe faid, "All my af. flictions are nothing to this. I have loft not only a fifter, but a friend. But it is the will of God.' I rely on Him; and doubt not but he will fupport me under it."

This evening we had fuch a storm of thunder and lightning, as I never faw before even in Georgia. This

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