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thing to lie still upon the ground, though without power to move, and sick beyond all thought, loath ing myself and all that I had been and seen. For I had not even the sense that I had been wronged to keep me up, but only a nausea and horror of movement, a giddiness and whirl of every sense. I lay like a log upon the ground.

When I recovered my faculties a little, it was to find myself once more in the great vacant plain which surrounded that accursed home of pleasure-a great and desolate waste upon which I could see no track, which my heart fainted to look at, which no

with seeing, and my ears with learning. To watch the new-comers rush in, all pleased and eager, to see the eyes of the others glaze with weariness, wrought upon my strained nerves. I could not think, I could not rest, I could not endure. Music for ever and ever a whirl, a rush of music, always going on and on; and ever that maze of movement, till the eyes were feverish and the mouth parched; ever that mist of faces, now one gleaming out of the chaos, now another, some like the faces of angels, some miserable, weary, strained with smiling, with the monotony, and the endless, aimless, never-changing longer roused any hope in me, round. I heard myself calling to them to be still to be still to pause a moment. I felt myself stumble and turn round in the giddiness and horror of that movement without repose. And finally, I fell under the feet of the crowd, and felt the whirl go over and over me, and beat upon my brain, until I was pushed and thrust out of the way lest I should stop the measure. There I lay, sick, satiate, for I know not how long; loathing everything around me, ready to give all I had (but what had I to give?) for one moment of silence. But always the music went on, and the dancers danced, and the people feasted, and the songs and the voices echoed up to the skies.

How at last I stumbled forth I cannot tell. Desperation must have moved me, and that impatience which, after every hope and disappointment, comes back and back, the one sensation that never fails. I dragged my self at last by intervals, like a sick dog, outside the revels, still hearing them, which was torture to me, even when at last I got beyond the crowd. It was some

as if it might lead to another beginning, or any place in which yet at the last it might be possible to live. As I lay in that horrible giddiness and faintness, I loathed life and this continuance which brought me through one misery after another, and forbade me to die. Oh that death would come--death which is silent and still, which makes no movement and hears no sound! that I might end and be no more! Oh that I could go back even to the stillness of that chamber which I had not been able to endure! Oh that I could return-return to what? to other miseries and other pain, which looked less because they were past. But I knew now that return was impossible until I had circled all the dreadful round; and already I felt again the burning of that desire that pricked and drove me on-not back, for that was impossible. Little by little I had learned to understand, each step printed upon my brain as with red-hot irons not back, but on, and on. To greater anguish, yes; but on to fuller despair, to experiences more terrible: but on, and on, and on. I

arose again, for this was my fate. I could not pause even for all the teachings of despair.

The waste stretched far as eyes could see. It was wild and terrible, with neither vegetation nor sign of life. Here and there were heaps of ruin, which had been villages and cities; but nothing was in them save reptiles and crawling poisonous life, and traps for the unwary wanderer. How often I stumbled and fell among these ashes and dust - heaps of the past-through what dread moments I lay, with cold and slimy things leaving their trace upon my flesh the horrors which seized me, so that I beat my head against a stone,-why should I tell? These were nought; they touched not the soul. They were but accidents of the way.

examined all that was being done and understood-for I had known a little upon the earth, and my old knowledge came back, and to learn so much more filled me with new life. The master of all was one who never rested, nor seemed to feel weariness, nor pain, nor pleasure. He had everything in his hand. All who were there were his workmen, or his assistants, or his servants. No one shared with him in his councils. He was more than a prince among them-he was as a god. And the things he planned and made, and at which in armies and legions his workmen toiled and laboured, were like living things. They were made of steel and iron, but they moved like the brains and nerves of men. They went where he directed them, and did what he commanded, and moved at a touch. And though he talked little, when he saw how I followed all that he did, he was a little moved towards me, and spoke and explained to It was me the conceptions that were in his mind, one rising out of another, like the leaf out of the stem and the flower out of the bud. For nothing pleased him. that he did, and necessity was upon him to go on and on.

At length, when body and soul were low and worn out with misery and weariness, I came to another place, where all was so different from the last, that the sight gave me a momentary solace.

full of furnaces and clanking machinery and endless work. The whole air round was aglow with the fury of the fires, and men went and came like demons in the flames, with red-hot melting metal, pouring it into moulds and beating it on anvils. In the huge workshops in the background there was a perpetual whir of machinery of wheels turning and turning, and pistons beating, and all the din of labour, which for a time renewed the anguish of my brain, yet also soothed it; for there was meaning in the beatings and the whirlings. And a hope rose within me that with all the forces that were here, some revolution might be possible-something that would change the features of this place and overturn the worlds. I went from workshop to workshop, and

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"They are like living things," said "they do your bidding whatever you command them. They are like another and a stronger race of men,"

"Men!" he said, "what are men? the most contemptible of all things that are made-creatures who will undo in a moment what it has taken millions of years, and all the skill and all the strength of generations to do. These are better than men. They cannot think or feel. They cannot stop but at my bidding, or begin unless I will. Had men been made so, we should be masters of the world,"

"Had men been made so, you would never have been-for what could genius have done or thought? -you would have been a machine like all the rest."

"And better so!" he said, and turned away; for at that moment, watching keenly as he spoke the action of a delicate combination of movements, all made and balanced to a hair's-breadth, there had come to him suddenly the idea of something which made it a hundredfold more strong than terrible. For they were terrible these things that lived yet did not live, which were his slaves, and moved at his will. When he had done this, he looked at me, and a smile came upon his mouth but his eyes smiled not, nor ever changed from the set look they wore. And the words he spoke were familiar words, not his, but out of the old life. "What a piece of work is a man!" he said; "how noble in reason, how infinite in faculty in form and moving how express and admirable! And yet to me what is this quintessence of dust?" His mind had followed another strain of thought, which to me was bewildering, so that I did not know how to reply. I answered like a child, upon his last word.

"We are dust no more," I cried, for pride was in my heart-pride of him and his wonderful strength, and his thoughts which created strength, and all the marvels he did "those things which hindered are removed. Go on, go on— you want but another step. What is to prevent that you should not shake the universe, and overturn this doom, and break all our bonds? There is enough here to explode this grey fiction of a firmament, and to rend those precipices and to dissolve that waste-as at the time when the primeval seas dried up, and those infernal mountains rose.'

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He laughed, and the echoes caught the sound and gave it back as if they mocked it "There is enough to rend us all into shreds," he said, "and shake, as you say, both heaven and earth, and these plains and those hills."

"Then why," I cried in my haste, with a dreadful hope piercing through my soul-"why do you create and perfect, but never employ? When we had armies on the earth we used them. You have more than armies. You have force beyond the thoughts of man: but all without use as yet.

"All," he cried, "for no use!" All in vain!—in vain!"

"O master! I said, "great, and more great, in time to come. Why?-why?"

He took me by the arm and drew me close.

"Have you strength," he said, "to bear it if I tell you why?"

I knew what he was about to say. I felt it in the quivering of my veins, and my heart that bounded as if it would escape from my breast. But I would not quail from what he did not shrink to utter. I could speak no word, but I looked him in the face and waited for that which was more terrible than all.

He held me by the arm, as if he would hold me up when the shock of anguish came. "They are in vain," he said, "in vain-because God rules over all."

His arm was strong; but I fell at his feet like a dead man.

How miserable is that image, and how unfit to use! Death is still and cool and sweet. There is nothing in it that pierces like a sword, that burns like fire, that rends and tears like the turning wheels. O life, O pain, O terrible name of God, in which is all succour and all torment ! What are pangs and tortures to that, which ever in

creases in its awful power, and has no limit, nor any alleviation, but whenever it is spoken penetrates through and through the miserable soul? O God, whom once I called my Father! O Thou who gavest me being, against whom I have fought, whom I fight to the end, shall there never be anything but anguish in the sound of Thy great name?

When I returned to such command of myself as one can have who has been transfixed by that sword of fire, the master stood by me still. He had not fallen like me, but his face was drawn with anguish and sorrow like the face of my friend who had been with me in the lazar-house, who had disappeared on the dark mountains. And as I looked at him, terror seized hold upon me, and a desire to flee and save myself, that I might not be drawn after him by the longing that was in his eyes.

The Master gave me his hand to help me to rise, and it trembled, but not like mine.

"Sir," I cried, "have not we enough to bear? Is it for hatred, is it for vengeance, that you speak that name!"

"O friend," he said, "neither for hatred nor revenge. It is like a fire in my veins: if one could find Him again!

"You, who are as a god-who can make and destroy-you, who could shake His throne?"

He put up his hand. "I who am His creature, even here-and still His child, though I am so far, so far

He caught my hand in his, and pointed with the other trembling. "Look! your eyes are more clear than mine, for they are not anxious like mine, you see anything upon the way?"

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The waste lay wild before us, dark with a faintly rising cloud, for darkness and cloud and the gloom of death attended upon that name. I thought, in his great genius and splendour of intellect, he had gone mad, as sometimes may be. "There is nothing," I said, and scorn came into my soul; but even as I spoke I saw I cannot tell what I sawa moving spot of milky whiteness in that dark and miserable wilderness,-no bigger than a man's hand, no bigger than a flower. "There is something," I said unwillingly; it has no shape nor form. It is a gossamer-web upon some bush, or a butterfly blown on the wind."

"There are neither butterflies nor gossamers here."

"Look for yourself then!" I cried, flinging his hand from me. I was angry with a rage which had no cause. I turned from him, though I loved him, with a desire to kill him in my heart; and hurriedly took the other way. The waste was wild: but rather that than to see the man who might have shaken earth and hell thus turning, turning to madness and the awful journey. For I knew what in his heart he thought, and I knew that it was So. It was something from that other sphere-can I tell you what? a child perhaps-oh, thought that wrings the heart! for do you know what manner of thing a child is? There are none in the land of darkness. I turned my back upon the place where that whiteness was. On, on, across the waste! On to the cities of the night! On, far away from maddening thought, from hope that is torment, and from the awful Name!

. MR HAYWARD AND HIS LETTERS.1

WHEN Mr Hayward died nearly three years ago, he had been for a long time a remarkable figure in the social life of London. What it was that made him notable did not at first sight appear. He had been bred to the Bar, and had attained to the dignity of Queen's Counsel, but he had for long abandoned the practice of his profession. He wrote reviews in an exceedingly good and popular style, but they were mostly on subjects of a light class, and they were purely and simply reviews, containing nothing which was not founded on the acts or thoughts of others. His conversation, likewise, afforded no evidence of originality; it was not in the least brilliant, and displayed chiefly a remarkable memory and power of quotation, great accuracy in dates and facts, strong opinions strongly expressed, and an impatience of contradiction, or even of dissent, amounting to intolerance, and not unfrequently leading to unpleasant collisions of temper. He was evidently not a rich man -he might even be called a poor one-inhabiting a small set of rooms on the second floor of a house in St James's Street, and sallying thence to dine at his club, the Athenæum. To the great majority of those who might chance to notice his small bent figure traversing Pall Mall with a rapid step, he was absolutely unknown by name. It might be supposed from all this that there was nothing greatly to distinguish him from a number of others who write essays and reviews anonymously in excellent English.

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to have supposed this would have been a mistake. Though unaided by fortune or fame, he exercised in many respects an influence due only to a commanding intellect in a commanding position. In London and in country-houses he moved in a very elevated stratum of society-in most gatherings of the most fashionable people he was pretty sure to be found. Great ladies talked of him as « Hayward." Eminent persons dining at his club gravitated to the table where, like Cato, he gave his little senate laws. Foreign statesmen, known throughout Europe, were his correspondents, and when they visited London, would seek interviews with him. But his influence appeared most distinctly in a political crisis, when great leaders would send for him, discuss the situation, and employ him in negotiating with statesmen of the class from which ministries are formed. This remarkable difference between the position which his apparent merits might naturally have gained for him and that which he actually enjoyed, formed a curious problem. It is to be accounted for not so much by his intellectual as by his moral characteristics. He was an exceedingly social man, and pushed his way with a hardihood which seemed to defy denial. His fondness for the company of persons of worldly consideration, backed by his strong self-confidence, procured for him a great number of important acquaintances, and these, it must be said, he never sought to propitiate by flattery; in all companies he was still Hayward,

1 A Selection from the Correspondence of Abraham Hayward, Q.C., from 1834 to 1884, with an Account of his Early Life. Edited by Henry E. Carlisle. London: John Murray. 1886.

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